I grew up in the heroin infested streets of the south bronx so i got turned onto it real easy so at 16 i was all out junkie.Then I moved to Ohio got clean for a lil while then got hooked on painkillers.I am trying to get on the methadone clinic it is just taking longer than I expected.I must have a addictive personality cuz I used to be hooked on car audio.I mean I have loved it for 15 years but for a while I was all out hooked I would spend my rent money on a amp or anything if the deal was good.Now I am kinda fallin in love with performance mods.
I was happy that I was allergic to heroin and Methadone(at a high dose). I was really more of an uppers person and one might say that car audio is an addiction- I have no problem's coming to grips with the fact that I am a bass-a-holic... Took the passing of one of my sons to get my head right(when it comes to drugs). Just frees up more money for car audio.. It is amazing how easy it was for me to justify (to myself) on what I was gonna do you replace the money that I needed to pay for the next buzz. Before ya know it, you have made to many excuses and forgot how you were gonna pay for of life necessities and at that point, it's like FU<K IT, I got enough money to get fu<ked up for a while, but nowhere near enough to do what I needed to do, so might as well get fu<ked up for a while so I don't have to think about that fact thatI am screwed. He!1 It kept my weight down which was beneficial to my first passion which was armwrestling. Making weight was never an issue and I was sponsored so It cost very little out of my pocket.. Sadly to say, I lived that way for 14 or so years. I was able to keep a good job which meant a could buy more dope. And loving the uppers, I was never tired.. Always wore the fu<k out, but never tired. My kids were never in harms way, but suffered in one way or another. But you dont see that at that time. Now I'm too heavy to compete at a national level so I found a different"my d!ck is bigger than yours" competition (car audio)... Plus just like pullin', in car audio, anyone can be a champion. Just depends on how much you want to put into it. I love teaching people who are into pullin' how to do it correctly, and believe it or not, it is a technical sport. Guess that is why I hang out here a lot. Plus learning is always nice. I was to the point in arm wrestling that I could no longer learn any thing,I just needed to train harder. Being off the dope and not having as much hours in the day to do everything (due to this new thing called sleep) and putting on 40+ pounds(finally had a healthy appetite) going to anything other than a local tournament was out of the question.. I can be upper free and a lil out of shape and still turn up the volume and bass knob and be in heaven. . You are not alone. But It can get better. Either way you have to do it. Good luck. You will need it.
